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NaNoWriMo Wrap Up

So November was National Novel Writing Month and I knew that it was going to be a tough one. I debated not taking part at all but I also knew I had to give it a shot. 

I enjoy NaNoWriMo because of the challenge is provides. I like the idea of trying to get to this final goal along with so many other people. I also really like watching my number climb higher and closer to my goal. I have since found that it is something I can do on Scrivener which is nice to know.

I also knew though that this NaNo was not going to be super successful for me. I think one of the main things I found out throughout November was that I don’t have to write 1,000 words every day to make progress on a project. I can write 100 or 500 and still be moving forward with a story. You don’t have to be writing day in and day out to be a writer and you don’t have to force something just to get words on a page. (At least for me as a writer with a  full time job).

I also learned how to manage my time better over this challenge. I can come home from work and get some words down before dinner. It will be even better when I move this month and have an actual room for my office. I am very excited to have a space dedicated to my writing and my writing only. 

In the end I only ended writing 17,859 words. I didn’t even crack the 25,000 goal I had set for myself, but I did find passion and drive for this story. I am excited for it. I am intrigued where it can go. I wrote it in pieces and at this point I am just going to continue to let it tell itself and then take those pieces and see what I can make of it. 

I don’t know when the novel will be done or where it will go but the NaNoWriMo gave me a push and ultimately that is all I needed. 

How did your NaNo month go?

NaNoWriMo Update

I thought it was time to give a quick update on how my NaNoWriMo attempt is going.  I said in my original post that I didn’t think I was going to get very far and that I would be surprised at anything I wrote. I also said it was more about getting something down on paper.

Well I will have to say that is very much still true. I think I am at about 8,000 words, which is not good for the challenge on Day 17. I started out the first week strong. I wrote every day going beyond the necessary word count.

Then life crept up and I lost control of it. My big work event happened on the 15th which went well but took a ton of my energy throughout the week or so leading up to it. Then I found a house that I am super excited to buy but that is a long and tedious process. Much of my free time as been dedicated to finding the right papers, making appointments to sign papers and setting up inspections.

I actually thought this weekend that I was going to do a lot of catching up but I work up Friday feeling like I am getting sick. This morning it was worse. I do plan on spending much of my time on my couch this weekend so we will see if I feel well enough to dive into the story. 

That being said I am excited about the progress  I have made on this story. I did something very different than I normally do when writing. Instead of trying to write the story in linear fashion I have been writing the scenes that keep coming to me. I have been getting a lot of the scenes that would end up in the middle of the book and instead of just making notes about them and waiting until I get to those points I have been writing those scenes. I have a feeling this book may end up like a jigsaw puzzle that needs to be put in order but that doesn’t sound too bad. Actually sounds a bit of fun.

I will be writing a wrap up post near the end of the month on this saga. I hope to get at least 25,000 words done by the end of the month, which may be possible now that work has slowed down and I am at the waiting point for the loan on the house.

Are you doing NaNoWriMo? How are you doing? Any surprises that you are particularly pleased about?

NaNoWriMo Attempt


It is almost that time of year again, National Novel Writing Month. It is a challenge to write a full novel in a month, or at least 50,000 words of a novel, in the month of November. The idea is to use the month to put yourself into overdrive and get out that first draft.

I have done NaNoWriMo since 2012. In that time I have only ‘won” twice. I tend to get stuck in the middle of the novel and fizzle out. I do enjoy the challenge though and this year the challenge is going to be much bigger than usual for me.

While I do plan on participating I know that my odds of even coming close to winning this year are very slim. Not only do I have a major work even, a Poetry SLAM for 26 teams with 400 kids that I am primarily in charge of planning, it is also my birthday month (I am turning 30), Thanksgiving and I have also decided to buy a house.

So the fact that I am going to add “write a whole novel in 30 days” to my list of a thousand things to do is a huge hurdle to jump. While I know that my odds of getting close to 50,000 words in the month are low, I do want to use this time to get as much down as possible. I like the challenge. I love the shared feeling of pushing towards a goal.

I do want to try to go to a few write ins though not sure when I’ll make time for that. NaNoWriMo for me this year is a more of a challenge to prove to myself that I can make time to write. I know my life is much busier than it has been in the past but that does not mean my writing has to suffer. I can make this work and I plan on showing myself that in November.

I also am going to try something else. Instead of handwriting everything I am going to try typing and see where that gets me. I will probably still handwrite pieces of it because I just love to handwrite when I write but because of time I may do most of it directly in typing in order to get closer. We will see if that gets me anywhere close to the story I have in mind.

If you are doing NaNoWriMo be sure to add me as a friend and maybe that will help me stay on track better! My name is on the site is Shmibby.

Are you doing NaNoWriMo?

The Great American Read List


So I caught the PBS opening special about The Great American Read. The idea is to do a few themed episodes showcasing the 100 top voted books in the country. They chose the books through a voting system and now they are looking to narrow it down to the top book in America.

I found it interesting that I didn’t know a handful of these books. I also have only read a handful as well. I thought it would be interesting to think about the books I think should win.

I love this idea, having people go through a list and vote on the book that speaks most to them. Books change our lives in so many different ways. They can wake you up, they can break your heart and help you find a new way to grow. They can be the thing that changes your way of thinking. Books open so many paths.

After going through this list I have an idea of the top three books I think should win this. The first being Harry Potter of course. I have gone on and one about my love and adoration for this series. I have done numerous posts about the way this series has shaped my life. I would love to see this series win.

Second I would chose The Giver. This book is my second favorite book of all time. It is unique and fascinating. A world where there is no pain, no emotion, no memories. Watching the main character wake up, watching the world around him become something more is fascinating. It is short but it is powerful. For a world that is forgetting what it means to be human this is an important book.

Last I would pick The Outsiders. I remember this being one of those books that just hit me square in the chest when I read it. It was one of the first books where I saw male friends becoming family. You saw the emotional side of these friends and these guys, something you rarely see. I loved the intense emotion of this book.

On another note there are two books on this list I think should not have even made it on here. The first being Fifty Shades of Grey. I read the series, more out of curiosity than anything. While I didn’t hate it, it definitely does not deserve to be considered a “great read.” It has zero substance and perpetuates a lot of negative things.

Second I do not see why Twilight is on here. I read that series, I loved it at one time. It is a fun read. It is perfect to escape into and help boost the YA genre. But it doesn’t hold any real substance or life changing aspect to it.

I thought it would be interesting and fun to talk about these books. Out of the list which have you read? Which do you think deserve to win this race? (I have starred the books I have read).

I am going to leave the link to their website if you want to learn more or vote.

The Great American Read Book List:

* 1984 George Orwell

A Confederacy of Dunces John Kennedy Toole

A Prayer for Owen Meany John Irving

A Separate Peace John Knowles

A Tree Grows in Brooklyn Betty Smith

* The Adventures of Tom Sawyer Mark Twain

The Alchemist Paulo Coelho

Alex Cross Mysteries (series) James Patterson

Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland Lewis Carroll

Americanah Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

*And Then There Were None Agatha Christie

* Anne of Green Gables Lucy Maud Montgomery

Another Country James Baldwin

Atlas Shrugged Ayn Rand

* Beloved Toni Morrison

Bless Me, Ultima Rudolfo Anaya

* The Book Thief Markus Zusak

The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao Junot Díaz

* The Call of the Wild Jack London

* Catch-22 Joseph Heller

*The Catcher in the Rye J.D. Salinger

* Charlotte’s Web E.B. White

*The Chronicles of Narnia (series) C.S. Lewis

The Clan of the Cave Bear Jean M. Auel

The Coldest Winter Ever Sister Souljah

The Color Purple Alice Walker

The Count of Monte Cristo Alexandre Dumas6

Crime and Punishment Fyodor Dostoyevsky

The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time Mark Haddon

*The Da Vinci Code Dan Brown

Don Quixote Miguel de Cervantes

Doña Bárbára Rómulo Gallegos

Dune Frank Herbert

*Fifty Shades of Grey (series) E.L. James

Flowers in the Attic V.C. Andrews

Foundation (series) Isaac Asimov

*Frankenstein Mary Shelley

*A Game of Thrones (series) George R.R. Martin

Ghost Jason Reynolds

Gilead Marilynne Robinson

*The Giver Lois Lowry

The Godfather Mario Puzo

Gone Girl Gillian Flynn

*Gone with the Wind Margaret Mitchell

 The Grapes of Wrath John Steinbeck

Great Expectations Charles Dickens

*The Great Gatsby F. Scott Fitzgerald

Gulliver’s Travels Jonathan Swift

*The Handmaid’s Tale Margaret Atwood

* Harry Potter (series) J.K. Rowling

*Hatchet (series) Gary Paulsen

*Heart of Darkness Joseph Conrad

*The Help Kathryn Stockett

*The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy Douglas Adams

*The Hunger Games (series) Suzanne Collins

The Hunt for Red October Tom Clancy

The Intuitionist Colson Whitehead

*Invisible Man Ralph Ellison

Jane Eyre Charlotte Brontë

The Joy Luck Club Amy Tan

Jurassic Park Michael Crichton

Left Behind (series) Tim LaHaye and Jerry B. Jenkins

The Little Prince Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

Little Women Louisa May Alcott

Lonesome Dove Larry McMurtry

Looking for Alaska John Green

*The Lord of the Rings (series) J.R.R. Tolkien

The Lovely Bones Alice Sebold

The Martian Andy Weir

Memoirs of a Geisha Arthur Golden

Mind Invaders Dave Hunt

Moby-Dick Herman Melville

The Notebook Nicholas Sparks

One Hundred Years of Solitude Gabriel García Márquez

Outlander (series) Diana Gabaldon

*The Outsiders S.E. Hinton

The Picture of Dorian Gray Oscar Wilde

The Pilgrim’s Progress John Bunyan

The Pillars of the Earth Ken Follett

*Pride and Prejudice Jane Austen

*Ready Player One Ernest Cline

Rebecca Daphne du Maurier

*The Shack William P. Young

Siddhartha Hermann Hesse

The Sirens of Titan Kurt Vonnegut

*The Stand Stephen King

The Sun Also Rises Ernest Hemingway

Swan Song Robert R. McCammon

Tales of the City (series) Armistead Maupin

Their Eyes Were Watching God Zora Neale Hurston

Things Fall Apart Chinua Achebe

This Present Darkness Frank E. Peretti

*To Kill a Mockingbird Harper Lee

*The Twilight Saga (series) Stephenie Meyer

War and Peace Leo Tolstoy

Watchers Dean Koontz

The Wheel of Time (series) Robert Jordan and Brandon Sanderson

* Where the Red Fern Grows Wilson Rawls

*White Teeth Zadie Smith

Wuthering Heights Emily Brontë



Becoming Re-Inspired

1280px-Stipula_fountain_penI have been struggling for quite a while to find my inspiration for writing. In college I wrote all the time. I wrote fan fiction as well as my own original pieces. I was always eager to write. (Now this might be because in my first two years I was lonely and had a lot of time on my hands).

After I graduated I spent a lot of time editing and working on self-publishing my book of short stories, Is There More? Once the book was completed I found myself struggling with picking up my pen and writing again.

It wasn’t that I didn’t want to write. The stories chased themselves around my head, all the time. I had ideas piling up on my phone and in notebooks. It was just as soon as I put my pen to paper, the words were stuck. I couldn’t translate my ideas in any real way. They would sound chunky and out of order. The stories themselves started to sound contrived and boring. I just felt like I was barely treading water.

I worked on a novel, wrote two drafts but never felt connected to it. I always felt like I was pushing against a wall and the wall was winning. I began to wonder what I was doing wrong or what I needed to do again.

During this time I was also struggling hard with finding a job. My schedule was all over the place and my mental health was not the best. January I found a full-time job that I love. I don’t come home stressed. I feel accomplished, wanted and needed. I feel the most in control of my life than I have in a very long time. But writing was still so difficult for me and I could not figure out why.

On August 4th I went to a writing conference in my city that was held by a local nonprofit. It was free and it was big. I had heard about it for a long time but never could manage to get there. I was finally able to do it this year and I am so thankful that I did.

I didn’t know what to expect. I didn’t know if I was going to meet a bunch of people, hear great talks or just feel comfortable in a realm that I knew. I was worried that it might not be what I wanted it to be, that I would leave feeling lost and disappointed. When in fact the opposite happened.

It was simple yet it was exactly what I needed. I didn’t meet anyone new and I was okay with that. It was interesting because it was a conference for writers, who are usually introverts, everyone kind of did their own thing. No one forced a conversation to “network.” Everyone there was friendly but there was no forced ice breakers. For me I felt comfortable because I wasn’t being forced to talk, just to talk. I didn’t feel out of sorts or like an outcast. I felt like I belonged there, which is a super important feeling for me.

The talks were awesome. I felt connected to the subject matter. I sat in on a talk about after the first draft, what publishers think when reading your first page and social media for writers. I felt connected to all the subject matter and it was useful. Not stuff I knew already. It was information that I could and will use.

I expected a younger crowd. I am not sure why but I was expected a crowed from 20-35. Where in reality it was actually more like 35-60. I found that inspiring as well. I think part of my problem has been that I feel like the older I get, time is running out to make my writing matter. Seeing the older age range here made me realize that isn’t true. I knew it deep down but it pushed that thought to the surface and that was helpful.

I am so excited now to write. I found a journal that I want to submit to. I feel like I have an idea of how to go about working on my novel. I feel the old excitement that I felt in college. I also plan on joining this group that is the local literary group and hope that will give me a push that I need. I am so excited again and that is thrilling.

How have you overcome a creative block?

LGBTQIA+ Book Recommendations

It’s June, which means it is Pride Month! I knew I wanted to do a post about some of my favorite books with LGBTQIA+ representation in them but wasn’t quite sure how to frame it. I thought about just doing a list but also wanted it to have a bit more depth. I decided to explore how my eyes as a straight cis person have been opened through the books I have read over the last 10 or so years.

The other day I got to thinking about how my reading habits have changed and expanded as I have gotten older. I then began thinking about the books that have become available in the last few years. It amazed me to think about how representation has expanded in books recently and how encouraging that is to see. While we have a long way to go there has been serious positive progress.

$_57I remember the first book I read that had a gay character in it was The Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Clare. I was in high school when I started that series and I chose it become it seemed like it had Harry Potter vibes to it. I really got into the story and found that one of my favorite characters was Magnus Bane.

I remember reading about Alec and his journey of coming out and his relationship with Magnus and thought it was adorable. It became one of my favorite aspects of the books because I really enjoyed their relationship together. But it was quite a while until I found another book that had any characters that weren’t straight in them.

Where I went to college you were required to take what was called a “Thematic Sequence.” I went to a liberal arts college so this was another way to get us to take classes outside of our major and explore other areas more. (In reality it was probably just a way to get more money out of us because you had to do this to graduate but that isn’t the point).

I chose to take “Family and Sexuality.” At this point being gay and part of the LGBT (these were the only letters in that acryonm that I knew of) community was becoming something I was hearing about more and realizing was a bigger part of our world than I previously had known.

When I grew up I knew about being gay or a lesbian but it was not something that I heard about often. Once I entered college in 2007-2011 I heard more and more and became very interested in the history of the LGBT community and how it related to our society at the time. I identify as straight and female but I still found myself very intrigued so I took three course that centered around family and sexuality and how they intersected with one another.

I learned a lot about different sexualities but I still noticed that what I was reading was very one note. Representation in the literature I read was lacking any characters that were not straight and I wanted to find more diverse stories. While I enjoyed what I was reading I realized there was something lacking.

So I took a course called “Queer Theory,” which was extremely fascinating. (It is also interesting and possibly a post for the future that my mom had a trouble with the name of the course. For her the word “queer” was always a very negative term. It was used a serious insult for gay people when she was growing up. She still has trouble seeing it as anything but that now, even with the way my brother (who is gay) have tried to explain to her how it is used today. But as I said that is probably a future post about how words have changed and been reclaimed over time.)

51HVNXR8n0L._SX321_BO1,204,203,200_The course focused on the history of queer culture and how it has been represented in literature, more so in essays but still in some stories. I remember one book standing out and that was The Case of the Not-So-Nice Nurse by Mabel Maney. It was a lesbian mystery, along the lines of Nancy Drew. It was funny and different.

While I enjoyed the course I noticed that it still didn’t give me a plethora of literature to choose from that had any LGBT representation. So I started googling books on my own. I realized after taking these classes that I needed to expand my reading horizons.

I pride myself on making every attempt to understand the world around me. I want to learn about all life styles, culture, and religions that are not my own. I want to be able to understand how different the world is. One of the primary ways I do this is by reading so when I realized how limited my reading had been I knew I needed to try to learn more.


The books I found while doing my research was David Levithan’s books Boy Meets Boy and Two Boys Kissing. They both had story lines that intrigued me and focused on the stories of people I hadn’t read about before. Boy Meets Boy, I remember being plain fun. I do think it is time for a re-read of that one.

Two Boys Kissing was a deeper book. This was the first one that really exposed me to the trials of being gay. It was interesting 51T6A1sjizL._SX331_BO1,204,203,200_because if focused on a handful of different stories. There were the boys trying to protest and make a point, there was a budding romance and there was the boy who was thrown out of his family because of who he was. I wrote a review for it and you can read that here. I really enjoyed the book especially the manner of storytelling.

Once I stated blogging I found a way to find much more diverse books. It became easierfor me to find books that were outside of what I grew up reading. While I adored the books I read in my childhood I realized how important some of these other books were becoming.

The next author I found that I enjoyed was Adam Silver. I read More Happy Than Not9781616956776and it was such a fantastic story. It was painful and it hurt but it told a very important tale. I put him on my list of authors to watch right away. If you have not read History is All you Left Me or They Both Die at the End you are definitely missing out. They are all emotional and will hurt your heart but they are fantastic reads.

Victoria Schwab was the next author I discovered that had queer representation in her books. In “her Gathering of Magic” of series there is a gay relationship. I actually didn’t know that was part of the series when I started to read it. It was just a added bonus to an already fantastic story.

I came across Sean David Hutchinson next and if you have read any of my tags or reviews you will know that he is one my all time favorite authors. we are the ants, is one my top 10 books of all time. It is such a great story with some of the richest characters I have ever read. It was not what I expected and I think that is what made it so great. Edge of the Universe and Apocalypse Elena Mendoza are also fantastic.

One of the things I remember from Edge of the Universe was reading about a genderedge of universe queer character. This was not a type of character I had encountered before. I only had a very basic understanding of what being gender non-conforming meant when I was reading this book. But because of the inclusion and the addition I began to do my research and understand it more.

That is one of the things I love about reading. You are exposed to all new lives and ways of living that you may not be able to see in your every day life. I don’t know if I would have the understanding I do now of what gender non-conforming or gender fluid means without reading that character in Edge of the Universe. I didn’t understand so I did my research. I learned about someone different than me, one of the gifts that reading provides you.

Once I learned what gender fluid meant I kept my eye out for books with that representation. I found Mask of Shadows, which is a fantasy book where the main character is gender fluid. It was a fast paced and exciting story. It was brutal but it gave 29960675me a lot to think about and I enjoyed it.

I also picked up David Levithan’s book Every Day. It is about someone who switches bodies every single day. They never live inside the same life. While it doesn’t have a specific type of sexuality that the character identifies with it does explore sexualities and gender identities in a very interesting way. It was different and I thought it opened up interesting thoughts about how people identify. Like the idea of if you didn’t have a specific body of your own would you be attached to labels and definitions?

I began a new job where part of our mission involves sports, specifically soccer. I heard about a book called Running with Lions by Julian Winters which is a  love story between soccer players, one gay, the other bisexual. I was intrigued because it was rare to see a story with LGBTQUIA+ characters who are athletic. I enjoyed it and I enjoyed the look at a world that we tend to shy away from talking about sexuality through.

37830514This was a look at how my reading has diversified over the years and how books have helped me see life in a broader way while also recommending some of my favorite books with LGBTQIA+ representation in them. This is a short list and I have more that I enjoyed over time.

I also know that many of these focus on gay characters and I am in the process of finding more books that go beyond just gay characters. If you have recommendations of good stories with trans, bi-sexual, asexual, aromantic or genderfluid characters please pass them along.

Reading is powerful. Reading is one way we can help the world see that all love matters and is beautiful. Reading can help expose us to other live sand help us to understand how we are more the same than different.

What are some of your LGBTQIA+ recommendations?

Reading helped shape who I am

1280px-Stipula_fountain_penThe other day I was leaving my therapist’s office (I see a therapist for anxiety related issues, which can be a whole post in and of itself), and thinking about how much I have changed in the last few years. I then got to thinking about what helped lead me to be more comfortable in my own skin. One of the main things is reading, finding characters I can relate to and being part of a plot that in the end finds a solution.

During my session we got to talking about me being an introvert and that for the longest time I thought that being quiet was wrong. I grew up in an extroverted household and around a lot of extroverted people. I was seen as the shy one, sometimes even a bit rude because I had an issue talking with people. I thought there was something wrong with how I interacted with the world, because I was so different from those around me.

It wasn’t until about 4 years ago that I realized that being quiet is not a wrong thing. I realized this after reading Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking by Susan Cain. It made me realize that there wasn’t anything wrong with me. I just experienced the world differently.

quiet-the-power-of-introverts-in-a-world-that-cant-stop-talkingThere was nothing wrong with the fact that being around huge groups of people all the time was exhausting to me. I could put a name and idea to the way I got frustrated, tired and irritable after being around people all the time. It started to make sense. I realized how to adjust myself. I learned how to find a balance between what I need and the world around me.

I don’t know if I would have ever found that balance without that book. That is not the first time that a book impacted my life though. Books have been helping me find a way to  deal with world around me ever since I can remember.

I began reading when I was young because I felt like I needed somewhere to belong. Being the quiet one made me invisible in school. I had a few friends but no one seemed to see me. I was quiet so the teachers wrote me off as one not to worry about while other students figured I wasn’t worth the time to get to know. Books made me realize that I mattered in someway.

I read and saw these characters work to find solutions to huge problems. Whether it was the world ending,  a personal problem or saving a loved one; they always found a way to solve that problem. Sometimes it worked as they wanted, while other times it didn’t. Yet they always found a way to move one and continue living. I learned from my favorite stories what courage meant.

I fell in love with characters that I could relate to in the stories I loved. Hermione was this nerd that at first seemed like someone everyone was going to write off. She loved to study and learn new things, just like me. She was teased but she never changed who she was at her core. She stood up for herself and continued living for herself.

78416-Emma_Watson-women-blonde-brown_eyes-Harry_Potter-Hermione_Granger-748x998One moment I remember hitting me hard was in the fourth book when she gets all done up for the Yule Ball. She liked how she looked but realized that effort was too much for everyday. She was just as satisfied with how she looked every other day of her life as well.

For me that meant a lot. I have always had an issue with accepting the way I look. I am not what you would call a girly girl. I didn’t feel comfortable wearing dresses until my last weekend in college. I still only wear them now once in a while. I never wear makeup because I just don’t see enough of a different not justify the time needed. I have always thought of myself as a bit less because I don’t follow the usual stereotype of what being a girl means.

I found characters in books who were able to accept themselves as they were. Not only was there Hermione but Clary in Mortal Instruments and April from the Everworld series. I found myself in books and found ways I could relate to the world around me better.

As I grew older this became even more important. Recently I read The Hearts We Sold and Dee talked about her anxiety a bit, I felt like I could relate more to the character. I also have learned how to be stronger from the stories I have read. I read wondering how in the world things can work out sometimes and yet they always do. Characters find a way to succeed and I know that I can too.

For someone who has spent most of my life thinking that I have been living life wrong; being 29 and unmarried, no kids and just finding a full time job this year, I appreciate a story where things don’t go as they “should” go. I get to see that life is too complicated for us to ever think we  have to live it one way.

I know when I pick up a book that it will take me somewhere where I can learn sometime. Even in books that I don’t enjoy that much, there is always something I can learn. I will always be someone who pushes reading as the most important thing in our society.

We learn about others while learning about ourselves by reading. Books help us see that the world is complicated but also conquerable. Books provide hope.

I just was thinking about all this the other day and thought writing it up would be interesting. How has reading shaped your life?

New Writing Space

IMG_5321Over the last year I have been trying to figure out why my motivation for writing has been lacking. I could remember when I wrote everyday. I remember feeling like I didn’t have the choice but to write. I would write no matter what had gone on throughout the day. I never was too tired, or too preoccupied.

Over the last year that feeling has been gone. I have been trying to desperately figure out where it went. I thought at first it was because I spent so much time looking for a job, then I had multiple jobs. I put it all off as being too tired. I was not just physically tired but mentally as well. I was trying so hard during the day to prove myself, to show that I was worth hiring into a full time position that I used up all my motivation and strength. There was nothing left for me.

Then at the end of last year I was offered a full time position at one of my jobs. I took it with excitement. It was exactly what I had been hoping would happen from the start of my journey. I thought, “Perfect, that worry is now gone. I can pay my bills doing a job I love.”

I thought my writing motivation would come back in a flood. My weary mind had room to do something else now. But that didn’t happen. At first I put it off as the holidays. Christmas and New Years was stressful this year, in a good and bad ways. Life was stressful in and of itself. I thought if I could just get through December that I would get a routine back and everything would fall back into place.

Again, that didn’t happen. I found excuse after excuse to not write. I was tired. I had other things to do. I began to wonder if I cared about writing the same way again.

I then began watching the reboot of “Queer Eye” on Netflix. (It is a reboot of the show “Queer Eye for the Straight Guy,” a makeover show from the early 2000s I believe. It was one of my favorite shows back then. The reboot is fantastic!) One of the things they tend to do in that show is talk about creating a place specifically for the guy’s either hobby or way of life. It is usually about creating a space designed for them.

I realized that is what I was missing. In college I had a writing space. I had my set up, that was supposed to be for school work but became where I went to write. It had no distractions. It was about work and a spot for specifically for that and only that.

I did not have that in my apartment. It had a desk but it was used as a trash heap. I had my supplies but they had no home. I wrote on the couch, my back yelling at me. I wrote on the floor but could never get comfortable. Also each of those spots required me to do a lot of set up, a process that I never wanted to do.

IMG_5324So I went out and bought some things to create my writing space. I cleaned off my desk and moved it to a central part of my room. Moved my bed to the side and surround the desk with bookshelves. I found signs with sayings that can inspire me. I bought whiteboards and calendars to keep myself organized.

I transformed my room from a bedroom to a writing space. It has a new purpose now. I have somewhere, where I can sit down and begin to work without a set up process. It has no TV to be distracted by and my cat can easily curl up in my lap as I work without getting in the way.

Is this a magical cure to my block? No, but it is a start. It is a space that can inspire me. It is a space where I can feel like my writing has a home. I can see my progress whenever I walk in the room on my whiteboards. I want to be here and I am excited to see how far I can go now.

Do you have a writing space? How do you push yourself to get writing done around the rest of your life? 

WWBookclub Prisoner of Azkaban questions

I recently finish a re-read of the Prisoner of Azkaban after getting the illustrated version. I decided to choose a handful of the Wizard World Book club questions for Prisoner of Azbakan and answer them instead of choosing just one. 


274794_1311712503065_300_314Why does Lupin ask Neville to face the Boggart?

Lupin is one of the those people who can see past the outer facade of someone. He was able to see past Neville’s timid self. He saw past the self-doubt and fear. He saw the true potential that Neville held.

Lupin knew that Neville had power inside of himself. He knew that Neville just had to see himself succeed. Once Neville was able to stand up to his fear, he started on a path to becoming the Neville we see at the end of the series. I believe this moment gave Neville a test of what he could do and who he could become. In the end he learned that anyone, no matter their past, can face their fears and succeed.

QpZNtWhy is Harry so determined to prefect his Patronous?

The Patronous is a tool against something that terrifies Harry. The Dementors are a fear that at first he can’t see a way around. They pulled him down and he didn’t see how to make them go away.

He wants his Patronous perfect so that he can banish these things that bring him down. Harry can’t let anything defeat or hurt him. He needs power over these creatures. He can’t and he won’t let them rule him or over him. His Patronous gives him his power back.

Harry_Potter_and_the_Prisoner_of_Azkaban_(US_cover)Is Snape right to draw comparisons between Harry and James?

Snape can’t help but draw comparison. Harry is Jame’s son. It is natural to look at someone’s child and see their parent. People tend to look for traits so that they can say, “You are just like your father/mother.”

Snape sees Harry’s reckless behavior and sees a man that used to torment him. He sees a similar strong attitude, an attitude that makes him wonder if Harry is heading down a similar path to his father. Harry isn’t as arrogant as James but Harry does hold an opinion about himself, one he won’t let anyone change.

Harry disregards rules like James and his friends did. Snape sees these traits and draws an easy comparison. I don’t think it is a question of right or wrong. I think it is more of asking, can Snape see the difference between the two people?

581313c6c1b88058d834c695529b7d8c--harry-potter-professors-harry-potter-worldIs Hermione close-minded as Trewlaney suggest?

Hermione is not necessarily close-minded. She is open to new things, she accepts Lupin, sticks up for house-elves and tries to not judge people too quickly. She can open her mind when necessary. What she can’t do is believe in something she can’t prove.

Hermione is someone who needs facts and figures. She needs to see the details, and be able to use evidence to prove something. She needs books to supply her with knowledge and lessons.

Divination takes a bit of ability to go beyond facts and figures. You have to believe a bit in what you can’t tangibly understand with book knowledge. Hermione can’t do that. She can’t work with something that can’t be learned from books.

I wouldn’t say she is close-minded but she is hesitant to go with what she can’t learn and prefect.

DH-Promotional-Picture-draco-malfoy-27114107-960-1280Has Malfoy inherited the grudges he bears from his father?

I would say in a way, yes. Malfoy grew up with a mindset drilled into his head. He was taught that Muggleborns are beneath him. He was raised thinking his family name made him important. He believes this because of his father.

During his time at school he starts to see the difference in what is real and what his father has drilled into him. He sees the way attitudes are different. By book six and seven we see Malfoy becoming detached with his father’s way of thinking and acting. He begins to doubt the way he was told to understand the world.

HpBpHDo the Marauders trust each other?

In school, yes they did. They had no reason not to. Once they learned each other’s secrets, they learned who they were. They helped one another and in that process formed a strong bond. A bond that made them put all their trust into one another.

As they grew up and life got darker, misgivings snuck into their thoughts. They were in the middle of a war where no one knew who they could trust or not trust. People who never seemed evil were being caught as Death Eaters and hurting others. Even their strong bond began to crumble a little bit.

To keep Lily and James safe, they had to hide all they could from everyone. It was a dark and scary time, it was natural for them to wonder about the people around them. I think though that true trust between Sirius, James and Lupin was unbreakable.

NaNoWriMo 2017


It is that time of year again! NaNoWriMo is right around the corner and this year is going to be a serious challenge for me. For those of you who have no idea what NaNoWriMo means, it stands for National Novel Writing Month. It is a challenge to write a 50,000 word novel in a month in November.

I have been doing NaNoWriMo since 2012. I have only “won” twice, in 2014 and 2015. I have written a number of draft for novels though none have quite gotten past the initial draft stage. I use NaNo as a time to get as much of the idea onto paper as I can. Sometimes the stories just get stuck and I have to place them to the side until I can determine if they have anything to them.

Winning NaNo is difficult. You start off full of determination but as the month wears on you realize that writing a novel in a month is not easy. Many people get stuck in the middle and have no idea how to move forward. You get that beginning moving and when you hit the middle everything comes to a screaming halt.

Or you set up a schedule and in the end figure out that it just will not work for every day. One you miss that first day of words you find yourself trying to catch up and sometimes it just seems nearly impossible. The two times I have “won” I have been working until the last day. The years I have not won is because I get behind and can’t close that gap.

I love doing NaNo because I love the challenge. It pushes me to get as much of my novel done as I can. I need to get as many words down as I can throughout the month. I also make it more of a challenge for myself because of the fact that I hand write everything then type it up. Sometimes I think that makes it that much harder for myself.

This year will be my biggest challenge because I currently work two jobs and finding time to write has been difficult. I want to use November to see how I can better use my time. I know that “winning” this year may not be in the cards. I have two major work events in the middle of the month and then there is Thanksgiving and a shopping day with my brother. So I know there will be at least 4 days where I will get almost no writing done. But I want to see what I can do.

The best part of NaNo is that there is no real way to lose, unless you never start I guess. As long you get something written and get that work moving then it is worth the time. You may not get 50,000 words done but getting any words one the paper is what counts. Novels don’t get written by thinking about the story, they have to become physical for anyone to read them. NaNo helps give that push in order for you to get started. Once you have something on paper you have something work with.

This year I am going to be working on the novel I have been working on for two years now. It is about a world where alternate universe are kept in books and timelines, every choice made results is a new life and new world. Callie is in charge of keeping everything in order but once The Voices threaten her life and sanity she runs, leaving things to deteriorate. A group of people whose lives begin to devolve because of her choice must find her and put life right again.

I love the idea and have been struggling with particulars of it. Some pieces don’t fit and I have had trouble explain other aspects. Recently I rethought a huge portion of the story, got rid of a useless character and I now think I have it in a position where it can really roll. I am going to use NaNo to push this story as far as I can and see where I end up.

Who else is taking on this challenge in November? If you need a writing buddy find me on the site, my username is Shmibby. I would love to have some virtual writing friends to work on this with.

Good Luck to all those doing NaNoWriMo this year!

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